This post is not a planned post, not one that I was thinking about writing. The post was a sudden surprise; waking up in the morning and just starting to write.

I had been contemplating the Stations of the Cross by Giotto from the 14th Century in preparation for Inner Easter. Giotto is known for being the first to paint emotional portraiture and his “Lamentation” is heartbreaking. I was also wondering what I might offer as a Holy Imagination of the Annunciation (March 25). And recently I have had conversations and emails with two mothers who have lost an adult child and grieve deeply.  

In this message, my heart resonates with these mothers, Giotto’s Lamentation, and the imagination of the Annunciation and the Blessed Womb.

Whether or not you know the mother’s sorrow for yourself, I know you will know someone who lives with this feeling.  Share this post with her.

Giotto's Lamentation Scrovegni Chapel

Giotto’s Lamentation Scrovegni Chapel

Here are the thoughts on the grief of mothers that came to me…

To suffer means to “bear sorrow.”

To grieve means to “bear the grave sorrow of the death of another or the death of something that meant life and purpose to you.” When you lose your child, you also lose the the part of you whose purpose was to be that child’s mother in life and in so many active ways.  How do you mother a dead child?

Imagine the grieving womb, designed to bear life now flooded with the destiny of death.  My thoughts here are for all the mother’s who have lost a child of any age. I was conceived in a grieving womb as two years earlier my mother had given birth to a baby girl who only lived for 20 minutes and who she never held in her arms. I have counseled mothers bearing the grief of miscarriage, the grief of not being able to conceive, the grief of stillbirth, and the grief of abortion; those mothers who do not have the comfort of memories and stories about their child.

What are the 4 Ways We Grieve?

There is the grief of the senses: to only perceive via memories the voice, the touch, the way of walking, etc.  To keep painting and repainting the portrait of remembered sense impressions, to see them with inner eyes, to hear them with inner ears, to touch them with inner fingers. Wondering do they still see us from wherever they are?

There is the grief of the soul: to not experience the new thoughts, feelings and deeds of the developing  and who engaged and influenced your thoughts, feelings and deeds. How can one live without their questions, observations, experiences. And the working with the challenge of the grieving soul’s questions of destiny, fulfillment, karma, and incompletion. Can a life be too short?

There is the grief of rebalancing the sense of self and the sense of future…of finding an upright center  that responds to the addition of the weight of sorrow and the sudden absence of the weight of the child’s presence. Rebalancing now that there are only memories and past; the future does not promise new memories.

There is the grief of learning how to include the “self as grieving mother” in your self-awareness. How to wear the veil of sorrow in such a way that the sun can still shine on you for here-and-there moments.  It is learning how to stay afloat as waves of shocking, bitter, and sweet emotions sweep over you, sometimes coming straight on, other times swelling up from behind.

What are the 8 Comforts?

There is the comfort of all the stories of your child’s life. Let them warm your heart when grief brings a chill. The ascent from feeling the freeze in your bones, in your whole body, to feeling a weeping thaw, and all the subtle stages leading up to a surprising warmth in your heart. An extra beating in your heart that tells you your child is alive in you. And there is the stages from not smiling at the memories to that first gentle smile, the twinkling in your eyes, a sudden little giggle and then the laugh and delight that the memories have come alive with a new power and suffering can step aside for joy’s appearance.

There is the comfort of nature with the profound cycles of birth, life, death and rebirth.  At first, just let the sun, its light and its warmth, remind you of the gift of the light and warmth of of your child. But also let the sun remind you that you will rise from the darkness of grief and peek out from behind the clouds of sorrow.

There is the comfort of prayer and meditation.

There is the comfort of journaling & artistic expression: drawing, painting, collaging to express your grieving emotions.

There is the comfort of movement from the simple rhythm of walking to full expressive dance…let your whole body express your grief.

There is the comfort of sacred conversation with yourself, with your family and friends, with a spiritual mentor. When you choose to have a conversation, choose wisely.  You want someone who can witness grief without trying to fix it or make it go away because they are in a right relationship to death and grief. With this kind of loving witness you will not feel quite so alone in the solitude of your grief.

Eventually, there is the comfort of your conversations with your child’s spirit. I have a friend in Australia, who lost her son when he was in his twenties.  She gives talks and writes about Mother’s joy and how spiritually she maintains an active communion with her son though he is now across the Threshold of death. Maybe her experience is the transcendent stage of the suffering mother

There is the comfort of knowing there is no clock timing your process. You can take all the time you need.  And the grief of the senses, the grief of the soul, and the grief of rebalancing, each has their own timing, rhythm and resolve.

Please share this message with others.  Please share your experiences and thoughts on the Mother’s sorrow or the many experiences you have had with grieving any loss.

With much love and tenderness,